I NEED U...

I need u..may be i needed u frm frm long tym back,bt its high tym dat i need u now.Well ppl may think dat im getting desperate or frustated,bt i think dis is hightime when u must cum into mah lyf,els il hav to spend mah lyf wid sumone by arranged marriage i.e. whom i hav to love out of compulsion and not by choice.
Ppl oftn ask me hw i am? I feel sumwhat confused on what to answer dem,coz if i tell dem dt im fine,i wud b hiding d truth,and if i wud rpl back dt imnt fine,i wud tell a lie..Anyway coming to the point,cuz dose philospohical stuffs are not gonna help u retrieve mah lyf.
I need u in every romantic tracks dat i sing along.Its useless whn no ones hearing.I want atleast someone to hear to my 'besuro' 'talkata' voice.My friends call me a fm station,coz always i humm one song or d other..so i just nid a RJ,who can tune mah life and mek it more interesting..
I need u whn i c couples walking hand in hand.Its been a decade that i walk my paths n cross d roads on mah own.Aftr I left mah parent's hand and decided to walk alone(coz i ws no longer a toddler),dere has been no hand to fill up dat void.I am sick n tired of hearing d same soundtracks on mah earphone.So now,i need a Shadow which wud follow me even in darkness,after every light of life has faded..
I need u whn i feel lonely at nite,coz i hav no one to gossip mah whole dayz activity.Mah frnds get busy with their counterparts and i hav to be satisfy myslf by typing some idiotic conversations wid some single ppl lyk me in socail networking sites.
I need u when i feel bored in colg..When i bunk d classes of irritating professors,my max co-bunkers get themselves indulged into 29(famous game of cards in engineering colleges),i am outnumbered,i knw nothing of the game,so relishing odrs play wnt fullfill my cause,so i come back to balcony,only to find my remaining co bunkers talking in low voice ova d phn.I amnt a kid to nt undrstand whm dey r speaking to.
I need u whn mah frnds support me in all cases,i need sumone to criticize,els to follow me in all cases can be done well by mah shadows..y dem?? i also feel ur absence when i find d world is agnst me and dey try to press me agnst d cornr wall and criticize me in all i do..
I need u when i like some gifts,cards and also mah wallet permits me to own it,yet i come out of d store emptyhanded,coz i have no one to offer those..
I need u when mah frnds blush telling abt how their soulmates looked in traditional indian saree in saraswati pujo(bong velentines day).I just hav to keep my mouth sealed(dats a vry rare ocassion) coz i dnt hav any experience in dis regard..
I need u when i see the couples in the wall corner seats of a cinema hall overflowing with affection and i have to watch the silly melodrama dats goin on d 70mm screen..
I need u,when i dnt hav a testimonial in which a lover empties her heart out.I just hav to satisfied by the forwarded ones or d ones written by mah frnz..
I need u,when i c colg couples sticking to each other all d tym(yeh fevicol ka zor hai,tutega nehi).
I need u when i dnt hav romantic sms s in my inbox or i dnt hav anyone to dedicate mah written emotions,mah creations of a shayari or a poem goes undedicated or not thought about..
I need u whn i dnt hav an umbrella in d monsoon,and i dnt get the shelter of any umbreela to prevent mahself frm the vulnerable rain..
I need u when i want to think about someone,when i want to cherish the long drawn dream of luving someone madly.Aftr reading dis u al may start to curse urself for wasting 5mins of ur life,yet i thought to outpour my emotions on the url of mah blog..so i did it..

FIFA WORLD CUP THEME SONG

21st century modernisation OR Shame??

Well,I heard dis in aftrnun today from a friend of mine..The Moment I heard it,I was dumbstruck.I had nothing to say.She told me that in their college(not taking the name,an engineering colg),they are going to have fashion show,ramp walk in d auspicious occasion of saraswati puja..
"My GOD,wat dis girl is saying??"-This was my first reaction when i heard it.
Goddess Saraswati is considered as the goddess for education in hindu mythology.And wat respect ar we showing to the godess?? A fashion show!!!
Its has been years,from when the seriousness of the worshippers and the piousness of the puja has vanished.Loud music is played on the mandaps in the puja dayz,and the cheap item songs supress the voice of the slokas orated during the puja.Well,u cant ask people of evry strata of the society to worship god with a piousness and not dance/enjoy playing loud music.Bt atleast we can expect a lot more decency from the educated people around the state.
And dis college plans to do a fashion show?!! The puja gets into the backseat and the fashion show gets into the front seat..Is this what we are heading towards 21st century modernisation.Lacking pure devotion needed for a puja and walking in skimpy clothes just to show off a decent body wid MA SARASWATI behind the front stage??
I dont know which 'fertile' brains have given rise to this unethical idea.
Im sorry,but i pity their imaginative 'creative'ideas..Fashion Show may be an integral part of a fest,but not a puja!! We r giving rise to these engineers,who lack their common sense,Cramming and passing the exams wont help friends..Its ur improvisations and thoughtprocesses which are gonna lead u towards the glory of an engineer.Bt im afraid,my fellow engineering colleagues lack it..
They may call it the 21st century modernisation,ut to me its a step towards shame..

Niyotir Porihash..

Tumi Rup e aparupa,
Ami tomar rup e,
saradin dhore dekhi;
Tumi liner maro chokh e,
Tokhn amay r ke rokhe,
Ami pagoler moto dekhi..

Tumi Bristi porle mathay,
Nijeke Dhako chatay,
Ami bokar moto bhiji;
Likhte bosle khatay,
Koto chinta ashe mathay,
Ami tai likhi hijibiji..

Chop khele hoy Ambol,
Sudhu tomakei kore sombol,
A jibon pothe nemechi;
Gariahat theke jadavpure,
Sarata din chora rod e ghure,
Bhije Jol hoye ghemechi..

Tomar samne giye darabo,
Prem er hath barabo,
Emon kotoi plan na fedechi;
Ek chilte roddure,
Tumi ferale e bondhu re,
Tai r na pere kedechi..

Ami bunty,Tumi babli,
Koto nun chara alu kabli,
Amra eksathe bose kheyechi;
Bhalobasar pothe cholte giye,
Songi hisebe tomay niye,
Koto kostoi na peyechi..

College theke koto chompot,
Rangin hoyeche ei smritipot,
Sudhu tomar e mukher ankay;
Sese tomay ki pabona?
E nie koto chinta koto bhabona,
Tonok noreche Cigaretter chekay..

Ami Ram,Tumi Sita,
Hobe ki amar parineeta?
Er uttor ajo paini;
Ami ekta bhadro chele,
Proman dile,hiseb mele,
Jibone konodin mod-tod khaini..

Tumi jokhon badhon kholo chuler,
Ami duniar sob kaj bhule,
Kalo mohonar dike takiye thaki;
Tokhon sudhu tomay dekhi,tomay jani,
Tomay Bujhi tomay mani,
Ar table e te pora theke jay baki..

Aaj colleger borso-purti,
Tobu amar mone nei furti,
Karon tumi chere geche amay;
Sughobhir jongole,
Hajaro payer dongole,
Tumi eka kore diecho amay..

Lekhata hocche bisri,
Tobu tumi dekhte susri,
Tai bhulbona tomay konodin;
Bajate a pran e beena,
Tobe aj keno koro ghrina,
Ta bollena may konodin..

Tumi purnochondrer alo,
Tai besechilam tomay bhalo,
Keno je ta ajo bujhini;
Tumi chole jawar por,
Kete geche koto mash,
Tobu onyo kauke khujini..

Tumi sotyiy chile ananyo,
Tai tomar ruper labonyo,
aj o amar ghum kere ney;
Sudhu tomar kotha bhabte giye,
Pichle pori hat te giye,
Ar hath 2to dhulo jhere ney..

Mathay choaro chilo tomar premer abesh,
Emon somoy rahul er ghotlo anuprobesh,
Tumi chole gele or kache;
Colg math er mosar kamor,
Bhulieche ki norom hath or?
Naki tomar ekhno mone ache??

Swapner ghar bedechilam tomay niye,
Bhanglo sedin,jedin rahul korlo tomay biye,
Janina,amar ki je chilo ghatti;
Bhablam Onek,Uttor pelam na,
Metroy jhape kata lash,
Janacche aamar panchatwo-prapti...

NB: Ei lekha ta calss 9 er annual xam,bengali 2nd paper er ager rate lekha..baba janto ami porchilam,ar ami..he he..

A nice sunset...

Hothat Tiyasar Jonno....

Gharir katay 9:15pm moto hobe..Internet ta jalate arombho kore dilo.Server ta boddo slow hoe gelo..ar nite parlam na..Rager mathay pc ta bondho kore dilam.Star Jalsay hoye chola "Ogo bodhu sundori" janie dilo je ekhn TV r remote ta newa bhabatai onyay,karon chaileo pabona.Agotyar goti almari ta khullam..2006 e colg lyf e last din er tola chobi gulo ke nere chere dekhchilam..sobkotai abegprobon,smriti bijorito.Kintu ekta chobi te ese atke gelo hath ta.next pic e gelo na.Tiyasa ke ami aj o bhulte parini..
Tiyasa Choudhury,Pratt memorial theke amader colg e ase.Convent educated dekhe initail dayz e ghyam ta ektu besiy nito.Amar sathe tai jhamela tao beshi lagto..bondhu ra warn korechlo ke cinema onujayi,joto jhogra hoy,setai naki pore prem e rupantorito hoy.Amar kintu ta mone hoyni.bt kothay ache na "Man proposes,GOD disposes"..Setai holo..2nd sem r suru thekei kirokom jeno ekta tan onubhob korlam Tiyasa r proti.Prem? k jane? age to kokhno porini,tai etai je prem seta sure hote parlam na.
2005 er january te bodhoy Tiyasa ke propose korechilam,gaal e or hath er panch ta angul barbar bolchilo je eta prem hote pare na,bhule jaa..chesta korlam,bt bhulte parlam na.ebar bujhte suru korlam,na ota bhalobasa e chilo,tai bhulte parchina.
2-3 mash bade Sagnik ke dekhlam tiyasa r hath dhore colg theke berocche..Bujhlam odike ar takiye labh nei..kintu abar dekhlam sagnik ke porer din,cafeteriay..na,tiyasa noy,onyo arekta meyer hath dhore boshe ache.ha bhagoban,etai ki bhalobasa! je sotyiy bhalobase tar jibone kichui jotena ar edike sagnik..thak ota oder byapar.ami r dhukbo na.Eibhabe Sagnik ke dekhte laglam roj e tofat ei je sangini ta bodle jete laglo.Ekbar bhablam je Tiyasa ke bole diy sagnik er byapare,kintu oi thappad er protishodh nite bolini.Mone mone hoyto etao asa chilo je ekdin na ekdin tiyasa thik e bujhte parbe konta sotyikarre bhalobasa,k bolte pare tahole hoyto fireo aste pare amar kache..
Rabindranath ekta kotha bolechilen,"Britha asa morite moriteo more na"..amar o serokom e holo..tiyasa ke ekhno valobastam,opekkha kortam je kobe o bujhbe..2006 r may mashe sem sese bujhte parlam asa ta britha e roye gelo..je amar howar chilo na,holo na..
Tiyasa r sei last diner photo ta amar chokher samne..ektu bhije gelo photor oporta.Sotyi,chokh ta r capacitor kharap hoe geche,ja kanna ase sob e pass kore dey..resistance zero..
2007 r 30th DEC JD Park metro statn e dekha holo tiyasa r sathe..IBM r chair e bose bose ektu chehara ta bhari hoeche or.Chokhachukhi Howar por kotha na bolle obhodrota hoy,tai o o bollo..ami bollam,"Kire? kemon achis? Chehara ta to bes bhari hoeche re..bhuri kore felechs dekhchi.." kirom nispolok cheye tiyasa bolechilo,"Sob jinis ki ar icche kore hoy,kichu jinis na chaileo sathe nie ghurte hoy." Ami abar bollam,"new year to samne..kalker plans ki?"..Tiyasa khanikta udas pane cheye bollo,"ajker din ta katuk na age,tarpor dekha jabe,new year..se to ar amar bhagye.."
Awaz er chote tiyasa r kotha theme gelo.metro chole aschlo..ami bollam,"Jai re,ofc ache".Tiyasa bolchilo"amio jabo re,tui metro y jabi ar ami onyo kichu te"..ami mane ta bujhe othar agei metro line e Tiyasa r jhap..speed e chola metror dapote spot death prat memorial er 2002 HS batch er brilliant student er..Hotobhombo hoye darie roilam.Police ese body nie gelo post mortem r jonno..ami sathe gelam..61yrs er Mr choudhury ke 6yrs er biltu r moto kaandte dekhlam sedin.amar chokh o sedin badh maneni.Pore jante parlam,Tiyasa was pregnant.Sagnik er kukirti eta.Advanced stage e dhora porechilo,bt lompot Sagnik biyer jonno ready chilo na.Abortion korale tiyasa r death o hote parto..tai kora hoyni..ekhn Tiyasa r hothat osadrishyo bhuri r karon bujhte parlam,or khanikta odbhut uttor er o rohosyo sondhan korte parlam..
Iss Chokh diye jhorna boyei choleche..Photo ta ke album e rekhe almari ta bondho korlam.chokh ta muche TV r ghar e elam,9:30 beje geche,remote ta niye on korlam.
KK r gan cholchilo,
"Hum rahe ya na rahe kal..
Kal Yaad Ayenge Wo pal.."
chokh duto sukolo na,ke jane keno? Hoyto Hothat Tiyasar jonno...